Dream State

“Everywhere I go I see people passing by. They keep staring back at me like some freak in paradise.” –Papa Roach–   Sometimes I forget where I am. Especially in the middle of the night. The transition from one home, to the current home happened so fast, and was a blur from beginning to end,Continue reading “Dream State”

Hell Week

“Voices, a thousand, thousand voices. Whispering, the time has passed for choices. Golden days are passing over, yeah.” –Ozzy Osborne Before Hell Week started, someone asked me, “why do you want to buy a house? It’s so much easier to rent. You have no idea what you’re in for.” There was only one answer. Permanence.Continue reading “Hell Week”

The Three Rings

 “Every day a new deception. Pick your scene and take direction. And all in all I search to connect, but I don’t wear a mask, and I have no regrets.”  Shinedown Often, as of late, I’m asked unexpected questions, and I find myself brought into conversations with which I was not prepared. It’s my ownContinue reading “The Three Rings”

Rollercoaster

What a whirlwind of a ride. So much has happened over a short amount of time, and that’s the reason for my absence. In a lot of ways, it feels as though a year has gone by in the last three weeks. Like so many other posts before this one, I’ve often hinted to theContinue reading “Rollercoaster”

Disconnect

“Nothing ’bout me is ordinary. My friends all say I’m going crazy. I don’t hear a word that they say.”—Shinedown   I go through periods of time where I have to separate myself fully from social media and mainstream everything. Sometimes upwards of a week or longer, before I’ll open it back up and takeContinue reading “Disconnect”

No-Man’s Land

“Joe Schmo sat in the snow. He didn’t know which way to go. All he knew, was his ass was cold.”–JSM   While standing beside my snoring, heavily medicated girlfriend sleeping soundly on the couch, drooling into her pillow, I believed at the time the remainder of Nancy’s life would be filled with hardship. IContinue reading “No-Man’s Land”

The Mortal’s Enemy

“Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid only of standing still.” –Chinese Proverb “The world is a vampire, sent to drain.” –Smashing Pumpkins   At this phase of my journey, and it happens in phases, I’ve come to understand some things. Bear in mind, this is all coming from subjective personal perspective. My truth. ToContinue reading “The Mortal’s Enemy”

Conspiracy Theorist

This might be one of those installments which could easily lump me into a specific category, and I’ve come to accept that. At this point, perhaps I welcome it? Not really sure to be honest… I really don’t care either way. That’s the beauty of self-awareness. Those who truly know me, know who I amContinue reading “Conspiracy Theorist”

Tantrum

    “Where there’s an absence of courage, can courage be found.” JSM   Chapter Twenty Six Blackout The day my teenage daughter moved in with Nancy and I, was the instant I set forth four specific rules to abide by. Those rules apply to all her friends coming and going, as well as any new comers toContinue reading “Tantrum”