My Better Half

“Re-think and restart if needed. Adjust, but resist the urge to quit.”–JSM   The first week of Nancy’s healing, was a time of madness. I can’t count how many times she wanted to close up shop, and quit on me. I wouldn’t allow it. When she begged me with tears streaming down her cheeks toContinue reading “My Better Half”

Disconnect

“Nothing ’bout me is ordinary. My friends all say I’m going crazy. I don’t hear a word that they say.”—Shinedown   I go through periods of time where I have to separate myself fully from social media and mainstream everything. Sometimes upwards of a week or longer, before I’ll open it back up and takeContinue reading “Disconnect”

No-Man’s Land

“Joe Schmo sat in the snow. He didn’t know which way to go. All he knew, was his ass was cold.”–JSM   While standing beside my snoring, heavily medicated girlfriend sleeping soundly on the couch, drooling into her pillow, I believed at the time the remainder of Nancy’s life would be filled with hardship. IContinue reading “No-Man’s Land”

The Mortal’s Enemy

“Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid only of standing still.” –Chinese Proverb “The world is a vampire, sent to drain.” –Smashing Pumpkins   At this phase of my journey, and it happens in phases, I’ve come to understand some things. Bear in mind, this is all coming from subjective personal perspective. My truth. ToContinue reading “The Mortal’s Enemy”

Conspiracy Theorist, Part 3:

“Expectation is the enemy to happiness.” –JSM   My daughter walked behind me as I was starting this installment. She stopped in her tracks, leaned over my shoulder and said, “Oh, wow! Cool!! You’re doing conspiracy theory stuff? Those are fun! Part three? What are you covering? I’ve seen “this” and watched that, and readContinue reading “Conspiracy Theorist, Part 3:”

Conspiracy Theorist, Part 2

Having one of those “bizarre” conversations a couple of months ago, centered loosely around “theories,” a statement from a friend really hit me hard, but not quite hard enough to knock me off balance. The words had an impact, but it wasn’t a take-down. In fact, the conversation was initiated by them, which indicates toContinue reading “Conspiracy Theorist, Part 2”

Conspiracy Theorist

This might be one of those installments which could easily lump me into a specific category, and I’ve come to accept that. At this point, perhaps I welcome it? Not really sure to be honest… I really don’t care either way. That’s the beauty of self-awareness. Those who truly know me, know who I amContinue reading “Conspiracy Theorist”