Dream State

“Everywhere I go I see people passing by. They keep staring back at me like some freak in paradise.” –Papa Roach–   Sometimes I forget where I am. Especially in the middle of the night. The transition from one home, to the current home happened so fast, and was a blur from beginning to end,Continue reading “Dream State”

Hell Week

“Voices, a thousand, thousand voices. Whispering, the time has passed for choices. Golden days are passing over, yeah.” –Ozzy Osborne Before Hell Week started, someone asked me, “why do you want to buy a house? It’s so much easier to rent. You have no idea what you’re in for.” There was only one answer. Permanence.Continue reading “Hell Week”

The Three Rings

 “Every day a new deception. Pick your scene and take direction. And all in all I search to connect, but I don’t wear a mask, and I have no regrets.”  Shinedown Often, as of late, I’m asked unexpected questions, and I find myself brought into conversations with which I was not prepared. It’s my ownContinue reading “The Three Rings”

Rollercoaster

What a whirlwind of a ride. So much has happened over a short amount of time, and that’s the reason for my absence. In a lot of ways, it feels as though a year has gone by in the last three weeks. Like so many other posts before this one, I’ve often hinted to theContinue reading “Rollercoaster”

“If” I was a Conspiracy Theorist

“If” I was a conspiracy theorist (good thing I’m not) I would begin my curiosity investigations, starting in China. As far back as I could delve into the available research. Cause… let’s be serious here… what the hell else are we going to do now-a-days? Some of us are still trapped inside the house withContinue reading ““If” I was a Conspiracy Theorist”

The Apocalypse is Expensive

“What will you do with your stimulus check?” I see the question floating around everywhere on social media. “Support something with the check. When the calamity is all done and over with, eat at your favorite restaurant again.” They may suggest. “Buy stock in a company. Invest in a dying business.” I have big plansContinue reading “The Apocalypse is Expensive”

My Better Half

“Re-think and restart if needed. Adjust, but resist the urge to quit.”–JSM   The first week of Nancy’s healing, was a time of madness. I can’t count how many times she wanted to close up shop, and quit on me. I wouldn’t allow it. When she begged me with tears streaming down her cheeks toContinue reading “My Better Half”

Disconnect

“Nothing ’bout me is ordinary. My friends all say I’m going crazy. I don’t hear a word that they say.”—Shinedown   I go through periods of time where I have to separate myself fully from social media and mainstream everything. Sometimes upwards of a week or longer, before I’ll open it back up and takeContinue reading “Disconnect”

No-Man’s Land

“Joe Schmo sat in the snow. He didn’t know which way to go. All he knew, was his ass was cold.”–JSM   While standing beside my snoring, heavily medicated girlfriend sleeping soundly on the couch, drooling into her pillow, I believed at the time the remainder of Nancy’s life would be filled with hardship. IContinue reading “No-Man’s Land”