It’s Complicated

Has anyone ever told you, “it’s impossible?”

“It can’t be done.”

“You can’t do it.”

“Don’t bother trying.”

“Are you mad/crazy/lost your faculties?”

On the day I was told those very same things, all it did was add fuel to a rapidly dwindling fire. I was on the cusp of defeat. Tired. A machination. A robotic automaton just going through the motions. The inner flame was almost out. Another shovel full of soil and I would have been smothered into oblivion. Extinguished permanently.

But… just a combination of a few of those words which were uttered to me all those years ago rekindled the dying light, and the tiny spark accompanied with a heavy breath, the fire sprung back; blossoming into a raging inferno.

Don’t tell me what I can’t do.

The things I do, and the activities I engage in, are because of love. Plain and simple. But I had to seek out the love, and passion. A long difficult search. I don’t do it for money. I don’t care about money. My needs are met. I don’t care about things. I have no appreciation for things anymore. I do it out of the love I have. Love, and passion, are two of the most powerful tools humans have at their disposal. I utilize my loves and passions to try and break free from the shackles of the world.

Create my reality, the way I want it.

After my last three-day book give-away, the number of downloads was staggering… to a little fish like me. I couldn’t believe it. I actually tried to blink it back to normal, because it didn’t seem right.

On social media… my post was “trending”.


Now… I’m not entirely sure how all that works out, or what fully constitutes a “trending” thing/post/topic, but the “word” stuck out like a swollen thumb.

Take it as a positive.

Then, I actually choked up a little.

Shut up!

Ok, ok… no over-the-top sappy stuff. I’ll keep it to myself. I won’t put you through that. Typically I wear my heart on my sleeve around here, but I’ll try and keep it contained this one time.

What it all boils down to, was the fact that all those downloads will eventually be read by someone, someday, maybe, perhaps. And for me??

It’s the greatest feeling on Earth. The fuel that keeps my fire alive.

Therefore, I continue forward with the primary objective.

To share the story with anyone who is willing to read it. Share the passion.

Convey the love the best way I know how. It was a labor of love, to say the least. No doubt about that.

I don’t spend truck tons of money on advertising. I’m not a campaign marketer, or promoter. The idea of “following” someone, just so they’ll maybe follow back… seems tedious. I don’t write to market. There’s no way I could do a book every other month. My female audience seems to enjoy the Surrender Game, so I’ll take that as a plus considering the main character, and the reviews.

I look forward to my “giveaway” moments. And there’s more to come.

The only thing I hope for out of it all, is a brief review. I love reading the reviews. Makes me smile inside.

Literary Titan is quoted as saying “This thrilling space opera is a unique fit in a packed genre.

At the end of the day, that’s all I ever wanted with this project. Bottom line. Something unique in the sci-fi verse. My own personal contribution. A love letter to all the entertainment outlets I’ve enjoyed over the years. Something a little different. Solid characters, with solid foundations established early on, and then without warning, crank everyone along in a roller coaster ride to the “end”.

Sounds simple…

But, it’s a little more complicated than that. Love is always complicated, and nothing is ever truly easy. Passion, has layers of complexity which have to be peeled back.

Over time, I’ve found something within those layers of complexity which requires attention, and I have to target it… immediately. Can’t wait anymore. Act on that gut instinct.

Reaching out into the community, I’m looking for someone to perhaps assist me with a “GIMP” related art program complication I’m having.

Considering the size of the book, in paperback form (it’s been referred to as a “chonker of a novel”), I’m not comfortable enough with the GIMP program, to change the size of the cover/spine/back artwork to mold it into the size of what Amazon is demanding the dimensions to be.

In other words, I’m terrified to screw up the art, in the GIMP program, and I’m desperate to get the paperback into waiting hands. It’s been far too long since the eBook was published. The paperback is a must at this point. But She’s stuck in the GIMP art program on my computer at home.

Anyone who knows someone, who knows someone, who would be willing to assist a moron like me in this arena for a few minutes, DM me, leave a comment below or email me at It would be appreciated.

I hate asking for help… but I also hate beating my head against a wall. In order for me to continue the mission, I have to get the paperback out into the world.


… and this is the only remaining hurdle.

I suppose that’s all in the tank for today. Don’t let someone live rent free in your head. Pursue the love. Find the passion. Do no harm, but never let an NPC tell you it can’t be done. Prove them otherwise.


The award winning, five star rated science fiction novel, The Surrender Game, Vol I of the Guardian War Chronicles, is available for purchase on Kindle for only $2.99. Free, with Kindle Unlimited. For the Surrender Game cinematic trailer, check out the link. Please subscribe in the provided area (three dots, upper right corner) to receive a notification of new posts by email or feel free to like my Facebook page to receive information about the Guardian War Chronicles and sequels to come.

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